This past month has been a whirlwind of emotions, thoughts, realizations and transition.
It is not often that life creates the opportunity to transition and transform to a new space because "something happened", but when it does I see it as an opportunity for personal re-birth.
A month ago almost to date my Father left this physical earth and passed on. He had been sick for years with an illness informally known as Lou Gehrig's Disease and on Fathers day his time came.
As I take a deep breath and collect my thoughts, I decided to show up and share about what the transition to life without my father has been like. If nothing else to provide a space to hold anyone else suffering from the loss of a loved one, you are loved and seen.
The power of feeling my feelings and honoring my process has been one of true reward. I have always known that my feelings do not have to result in taking action and sometimes the best action to take is sitting still and allowing the process of riding the wave to complete.
I feel optimistically giddy to tell you that even in the midst of the deepest processing of emotion I have ever known, joy can also be felt. Really the joy of being able to allow myself to go all the way with what I am feeling. I create more aliveness in myself the more I embrace the process, and remember that no matter what, my process is perfect for me.
Settling back into the familiar activities that add up to being my life, it feels special to be able to share my process with you. I am joyfully optimistic that for whatever reasons that may be that I lost my father from this physical earth, only the most positive and abundant circumstances will follow in my life. One of my dearest friends lovingly shared with me to "honor and own the unexpressed creativity and use it to express your life fully". What a gift, to lovingly cary on the vibrant and loving character that was so freely woven into me.
love you Daddy!
Lindsey Rainwater is an experienced consultant and coach to the fitness and wellness industry. She specializes in business development and leadership. Currently she is working with the Fitmarc Team helping club owners all over the south central region of the united states propel their business forward via group exercise solutions. For more information about lindsey, follow her @lindseyrainh2o